How I came to be (and what the hell Tiger Bomb is).

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My father immigrated to the United States in or around 1980.  The Vietnam War was over and he found himself on the losing side of long, bitter and terrible fight.  After spending time in a Malaysian refugee camp, he found asylum first in France, then in Sacramento, California and finally in Reno, Nevada.

I was born in 1986.  My mother and father met while working at the Cal Neva Casino.  Both were keno writers, a not-so-fancy job title for coordinating a lottery gambling game similar to Bingo.  I’m not sure how a traditional Vietnamese man named Hoat Trinh (pronounced Watt Tring) fell in love with Suzi Stormon, a 4’11” progressive American-Norwegian gal from Fargo, North Dakota.  But, as fate would have it, he did.  And she fell in love with him.

My father was very good at assimilating into the white world around him.  As his only child, he never taught me the Vietnamese language or ways and he spoke little of where he came from. He only relived his story in dark, nightmarish nights.

My father held onto Vietnam in little ways.  His accent.  His food.  He was stingy with money and scrappily resourceful when it came to fixing things.  He quietly believed in the ways of Buddha and outwardly believed in the healing power of Tiger Balm.

Whenever I was ill, hurt or suffering, my father turned to the herbal ointment for redemption.  When I had a cold, my father slathered the balm onto my nostrils.  A headache merited a healthy dose on my small, child temples.  He would mix a dollop of the menthol and paraffin based remedy into a glass of water and watch me gulp it down to ease my sore belly.

Because my father never lost his strong accent, he pronounced the balm as “Tiger Bomb”.

It wasn’t until I was in my late-teens that I learned it was misspoken.  But it was too late.  The name stuck.  And so did my absolute belief in its wonders.

My father died when I was 18 during my freshman year of college.  And when he did, so did my connection to Vietnam, to a family I have never met, and to a part of myself that I haven’t been able to discover.

Vietnamese blood runs through half of me.  Memories of my father run there too.  But I am not Vietnamese.

But I keep Tiger Balm with me wherever I go.  For my father, for the country he came from that I have never really known, for the belief that it truly is a miracle remedy, I rub it into my skin during times of worry.

I have traveled to many places in this world.  I have lived in four different continents, moving sometimes with two full-sized suitcases and other times with a small 50 liter backpack full of fisherman pants and tank tops made obsolete in my new destination.  But among my belongings, is always a little glass jar of Tiger Bomb.

10 thoughts on “How I came to be (and what the hell Tiger Bomb is).

  1. I am excited. and i like the title already so far I would probably pay over a £1 on the kindle which for me means that its good.

  2. Love it, Mai! As soon as I saw the tiger, I remembered my own father and his love for tiger balm. Looking forward to reading more…

  3. Looking forward to reliving some of our past vietnam experiences and hearing all about your new ones! I love you tons!

  4. Oh Mai,
    I have to admit that I cried pretty much the whole way through. Hah. I love you so much and I am so proud of you and so lucky to call you one of my closest friends. I plan on living vicariously through you during these times of adventure and I hope some day we can meet in a foreign place. I’m so happy I saw you in August. I love you darling! Travel safe…but not too safe!
    Diana aka Sandy

    1. Sandy – thank you for your words. I’ll always love you, no matter how far across the world we are from each other! I wish you great adventures (that I hope one day we can share)!

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